You are imputing duality where there is none, imputing ultimate and conventional. That is delusion

The essential nature that is the basis lacks the conventions of both unawareness and primordial wisdom. Developing realization of this base and excellent insight into it is conventionally designated as “wisdom.” Not understanding, not realizing, this very base at any time is conventionally designated “unawareness.” There have never been two independently existent things in one’s […]

Neither meditation nor anything on which to meditate can be found

Deep Immersion in Awareness states:

Resting just as it does in its own place, the nature of phenomena is similar to space. Since awareness undergoes no transition or change, there is no question of whether or not there is distraction. The immensity of sublime basic space, which does not form and then disintegrate, is not […]

The Great Garuda Spritual Approaches

Excessive desire is thus a means of suppressing our sense of worthlessness

To believe that if we could have but this or that we would be happy is to suppress the realization that the cause of our unhappiness is in our inadequate and blemished selves. Excessive desire is thus a means of suppressing our sense of worthlessness.

The actual realization is beyond the intellectual realization

The actual realization is beyond the intellectual realization